It doesn't matter what I do, life keeps happening.
Work, home. Home, work.
Home, work, home, work.
Maybe that's why in school, we had to do homework.
I am at a point in my life where, I have to take care of myself and my family.
Mike and I have our "kids", Coco and Zip.
Coco is so sweet and loving, and is the best snuggler in the world!
Here's Zip, with her house buddy, Rascal.
They bring a lot of love to our lives. So does our human family. But, unfortunately, we all have times when we disappoint one another. It is difficult when I have a young person in my family who is making poor choices. But I have to remember that I have made mistakes in my own journey.
So I hope and pray that things will get better. I cannot control the choices of a young adult. My mother is an incredible narcissist, and tried to control me and my brothers for most of our lives. It was extremely difficult to live with a person, whose approval I learned to be so dependent upon. Every error in judgment, every little mistake I made, just in the course of growing up, was met with "Don't you know how what YOU do affects Me???"
I didn't realize for many, many years, that isn't normal parenting. Being a parent requires a lot of selfless choices and unconditional love. I didn't get that from my mom.
As a result of my experiences, I have probably detatched, and sometimes, to a fault. I have learned to let go, and let God...I care about others, especially my own family, no matter how much I love them, but I do my best to stay out of their lives when it comes to the decision-making.
When I got to the worst point in my life, I was drinking way too much, and it was beginning to affect my life in all aspects - personal, professional, no fun, no progress...and I was physically manifesting symptoms of my problems...it was awful...And my family had had enough. They looked to me to help myself.
And so, I did. And it has made all the difference.
My son is still in a bad place. I have to pray for him until he gets to the point where he wants to help himself.
Meanwhile, I am heartbroken.
Please pray for us both, and for the rest of our friends and family.
They bring a lot of love to our lives. So does our human family. But, unfortunately, we all have times when we disappoint one another. It is difficult when I have a young person in my family who is making poor choices. But I have to remember that I have made mistakes in my own journey.
So I hope and pray that things will get better. I cannot control the choices of a young adult. My mother is an incredible narcissist, and tried to control me and my brothers for most of our lives. It was extremely difficult to live with a person, whose approval I learned to be so dependent upon. Every error in judgment, every little mistake I made, just in the course of growing up, was met with "Don't you know how what YOU do affects Me???"
I didn't realize for many, many years, that isn't normal parenting. Being a parent requires a lot of selfless choices and unconditional love. I didn't get that from my mom.
As a result of my experiences, I have probably detatched, and sometimes, to a fault. I have learned to let go, and let God...I care about others, especially my own family, no matter how much I love them, but I do my best to stay out of their lives when it comes to the decision-making.
When I got to the worst point in my life, I was drinking way too much, and it was beginning to affect my life in all aspects - personal, professional, no fun, no progress...and I was physically manifesting symptoms of my problems...it was awful...And my family had had enough. They looked to me to help myself.
And so, I did. And it has made all the difference.
My son is still in a bad place. I have to pray for him until he gets to the point where he wants to help himself.
Meanwhile, I am heartbroken.
Please pray for us both, and for the rest of our friends and family.
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