I started my blog speaking my mind.
And then, I began editing myself.
I was worried that I would offend someone - I don't know who.
But I got away from who I really am.
I was not dishonest, but felt I was walking on eggshells.
I chose my words far too carefully.
I didn't like this. It seemed wrong.
Uncomfortable. Just "icky".
You may say "Oh no, you didn't,"
Oh yes I did.
I wanted this to be completely and totally real.
And I need to be true to myself.
So, just to warn you, things will be changing.
I will sometimes say things you don't want to hear.
Things that aren't very nice.
Things that are, in fact, downright rude, or just "TMI" - "Too much information."
And for that, in advance, I will not apologize for things I intend to say in the future.
I hope that you will love me anyway -
Cuz I'm Keepin' It Real ♥
Good for you, I think you have to do whatever makes you feel true to yourself.
ReplyDeleteI definitely struggle with having to be fake, people have expectations and sometimes I feel the weight. I appreciate my immediate family because I can be my real grumpy self and they love me. They are the only ones who get the real me. Grumpy Traci typical repels people (it's a great way to get rid of a relationship) but if I want to keep the in-laws happy and my work relationships good (people do really prefer fake, overly emotional people are always ridiculed.) I keep the facade going.(or keep my guard up.) Honestly, it's only when I feel depressed that I feel like I have to be fake, when I'm good inside it comes more naturally for me to see things as the glass half full.
I'm learning that people are fake mostly for survival. When I'm down my first preference is to hide.(although I'm not good at hiding it, I wear the truth on my sleeve, I can't help but vent.)